Monday, April 02, 2007
Yon...I'm back haha...
May family matter nga...nagkaaway kame...tapos naayos ulit, kaso parang talagang malabo na eh...nakakainis nga eh....hanggang sa nung Feb. 3 na ganito suppose to be magjajam kami nina Trisha with some classmates, nasa peryahan sila muna...sumunod ako don then to my total (nga ba?) surprise nadon sya...tinawag ko sya kasi i thought nakatingin sya saken kasi kukunin ko na yung cp sa kanya, una hindi sya talaga tumitingin saken, tapos nung tumingin na sya nainis na ko kase, basta ewan ko, kaya yon finuckyouhan ko sya nagalit then, nung gabi he broke up with me... oucheeeeeeee talaga! Sa sobrang try ko to keep up with our relationship lalong nawala, hindi kami totally nagbreak non...Feb. 5 nagkasama kami, we confront each other pero wala na din hindi na din nabalik, every night talaga i'm crying...'til now...nakakainis talaga sobra!
9:12 PM
countless tears;
have dropped
"he left me"...ouch! drastic words...to think...i love him so much, totoo yon. Ngayong wala na kame lagi kong sinasabi na ang pangit nya, and ang sama ng ugali nya, chever, but i know deep inside totoo. Ang sakit ng ginawa nya talaga saken, pramiz, as in...nagbreak kami dati because of a girl, yun nga i broke up with him...ang ginawa nya she broke up with the girl and nagdecide na suyuin ako...grabe, nagusap kame sa court non, ang dami nyang sinabe. Kasi sabi ko, no nah, kasi ang dami nang nabago, lalo na kaming walang communication kasi, wala na kong cp, then wala na silang landline, and hindi na din ako lumalabas ng bahay kasi tinatamad na ko, sabi "eh ano, ok lang ang mahalaga mapatawad mo na ko, at maging tayo na ulet, kasi mahal kita" chever, chever! ahhh!...hehe...anyways, sabi ko, i'll forgive him, but hindi na magiging kami ulet, nagalit (demanding, hehe!) he's not in the place anyway, anyways...hehe, yon...tinanong ko sya kung ano nang nangyare sa kanila nung girl at nakita pa sila nung friend ko na naglalakad 1 na ata 12 or 2 in the morning...basta na magkaakbayan pa...(aray), sabi nya wala daw yon pangpast-time lang daw nya yon, hindi naman ako naniwala, sabi nya nung nakipagbreak daw ako sa kanya, he tried to forget me, by being with another girl, but hindi daw nya kaya, kaya yun...January 1, 2007 nung gabing yon, I'm with Ciarra pa, my classmate, sabi ko, ok bati na tayo, but hanggang dun lang, yon, i left him with those words lang, and nothing. Nagkatext kami Feb. 4, i give him my whole trust at nagkabalikan kami, Feb. 5 , birthday ng bestfriend nya, si Don, nagpunta kami sa Baras dun nga kina Don, nag-inom na sila sandali talk-talk and chever, kasama namin si Charles, kabarkada ko at nya, naramdaman ko sya non, hindi tulad nung dati na parang wala lang kame, pramiz as in naramdaman ko talaga sya, nagyaya na ko pauwi, nagpaalam na kame, masaya talaga non...oo, January 23, monthsary namen, we planned things na mas ikalalapit namen, after our date, nakahiga ako sa kanya (chest), hindi kami pareho nagsasalita, I just lie there letting my ears hear his heartbeat na ang bilis, tinanong ko sarili ko, ano kayang iniisip nito, tapos nagulat nalang ako, bigla akong niyakap, na ang higpit-higpit, nakapikit ako non, sabi ko sa sarili ko, mahal ko toh...i wont leave him...he must not. Yon, days past, biglang lumabo samahan namen, parang may kulang na, natuto pa kong manlalake, na never kong inisip sa buong buhay ko na gagawin ko, we had a big fight about this certain guy, na basta...tapos gumanti sya at nangbabae din, parang nagpapahiwatig na na ibebreak na nya ko...ayoko...sabi ko, sorry, nag histerical ako non, i cried so hard, nagdilim talaga paningin ko, feeling ko mapapatay ko anyone na magtry na lumapit saken, i can't breathe, pero nung nakatext ko na si Odeth (my friend), kumalma na ko, tapos, sya nagtext key Prince, na yun nga kung anong nangyari saken, tapos, yon nagkatext ulit kame at naayos naman, the next day, i'm in school, katext ko sya again, then nagpunta ko sa kanila, at first hindi ako umiimek, then yon nagkausap na kami...naging maayos lahat, hanggang sa may family matter na nangyare and...
to be continue...hehe...kakain muna ko...mwah!
4:15 AM
countless tears;
have dropped
Monday, December 04, 2006
I really experience a tragic week last week, grabeh! I really didn't expect it to happen, it was all good nung una, but i really promise really did not expect that my wonderful fantasy almost turn into a wreckless piece of junk, arg! Ok, here it goes..
Thursday
Nov. 30, 2006, 8:30am
Paggising ko (actually from a very nice sleep), nagpunta kong CR then nakasalubong ko on the way si mommy galing don, ok lang naman kame, seems nothing's wrong at all. Then after sa CR, I went back to bed, medyo nakakatamad pa kasing bumangon aga pa eh (nga pala papasok na si mommy nung time na makasalubong ko sya). Then half way on my pagmumuni-muni the phone rang, si ka ibeng ang sumagot, i don't know if they talked what, basta all I know is binigay na lang sakin yung phone kase kakausapin daw ako, i picked it up then greeted mom. Harg! She didn't greet me back, in a nice manner that is, pinagalitan agad ako, may nagCHISMIS kasi na nakikipagkita pa ako dun sa lalaking sinasabi nyang layuan ko daw eh ayoko nga he's my boyfriend and I love him so much, why should i leave him duh? I tell that to my self and not to my parents, bthey forbid me to hangout, watch outdoor games (that is currently the project in our place), use the telephone (which i disobeyed, hehe), use any cellphones (disobeyed), use the computer (that is OBVIOUSLY disobeyed). Hirap how can i see him again? sabagay kahapon i meet with him, haha, pero sandali lang, ang sinasabi ko yung matagal, aw! so sad! Panu kaya yon...
" I just hope to be a butterfly 'cause besides of the fact
that they are a fascinating creature and free to fly wherever they wanna go,
they where preserved with any beauty loss."
10:30 PM
countless tears;
have dropped
Monday, October 09, 2006
i don't know how things really do works..but all i know is that it doesn't always go as you what you've already have planned..sometimes it's ruined sometimes it's not..mahirap talaga..you thought that you've already gotten off someone..but in the end you'll figure out that you're wrong...so you'll came into the reason that you just need to get something to get over of spmeone..
8:20 PM
countless tears;
have dropped
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Grabe naman ang mga tao ngayon..your trying to give them your trust, your trying to give them respect, the best attitude that you can dig in your personality but what the hell did they give you in return? kaplastikan..siguro naiinis lang ako kasi hindi ako marunong makipagplastikan sa mga taong naituring ko nang friend bcoz wala feeling ko kapag plinastik ko yon kokonsensyahin lang ako ng sarili ko that's why i don't know..but nakakainis talaga yon.
Siguro it's just becuase i didn't expect to see those words na maitatype nya yon..or maybe nga sinabi pa nya..coz hindi ko naman masasabing totoong tao ako completely but when it comes to trusting someone..ay nako..sabihin man nila na siguro hindi lang ako makapagtrust ng kaibigan ko kaya ganon minsan..if they only know na kaya ako nagkakaganon is that's my way of showing people how much i care about them..kasi ayokong makasakit ng isang friend so..maybe it's just..ahh! ewan..i really..basta! minsan yah..parang just don't mind those ditchers basta live your own life..but i just can't get the heck out of it, kasi i really don't know kung pano nila nasisikmura na gawin yon saken if i'm really a part of their chronicle..na basta..it's not a good way of showing a gift of thanks talaga..
4:28 AM
countless tears;
have dropped
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
It was my birthday yesterday sabi ko while i'm in the shower na ayos na yung may kahit konti lang na makaalala ng birthday ko as long sana..this day eh maging masaya naman ako ..kasi most of may birthdays are drastic and basta.. oo nga nung uma-umaga masaya kasi..wow..ang daming nakaalala..but when pahapon na parang hindi na masaya..then i cried in the classroom nakayuko ako sa nobody notice and that's the plan actually kasi alam ko na magiging reaction nila if ever umiyak ako...siguro that day i expect na at that moment eh i'm with prinnce eh siguro yun lang
4:55 AM
countless tears;
have dropped
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Nothin' do it this best when chattin' with an old friend that you haven't seen since that friend left...yeah this is a YM conversation between my friend kit from US and me...na pinamagatang: "MAY MUMU SA MAY KINA LEK" (haha!)
kit grant Abaigar: Hey
aerua_twentitri: hey you too...
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahhaa
kit grant Abaigar: What up
aerua_twentitri: nothin' much haha..
aerua_twentitri: maagap labas namin
aerua_twentitri: hehe
kit grant Abaigar: Ahhh....si aue asan....
aerua_twentitri: baka nasa bahay..bakit?
kit grant Abaigar: Wala naman....
kit grant Abaigar: Yey....ehehehe
kit grant Abaigar: Musta naman problema mo...
aerua_twentitri: okei nah
aerua_twentitri: haha
kit grant Abaigar: Anu nangyare...
aerua_twentitri: i talked to jewel and prinnce...
aerua_twentitri: saka gian na din ng konti about that
kit grant Abaigar: And then....
aerua_twentitri: yon..hindi naman daw naghubo..
aerua_twentitri: hehe
kit grant Abaigar: So kau pba....
aerua_twentitri: oo naman
kit grant Abaigar: Aite....
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahaha....
aerua_twentitri: haha ka dyan
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahah
aerua_twentitri:
kit grant Abaigar: Eheheeh
aerua_twentitri: at bakit ka naman tumatawa? hah!
kit grant Abaigar: Wala naman....
aerua_twentitri: bleh!
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahhaha
kit grant Abaigar: Hey....I got 56 days more....
aerua_twentitri: til what?
kit grant Abaigar: Nov 2-jan 6
kit grant Abaigar: Damn....60 fukkin day...
aerua_twentitri: why? why? why?
kit grant Abaigar: anung why....
aerua_twentitri: what 56 days more?
kit grant Abaigar: 56 days to go en ill be in p.I mothafukker...
aerua_twentitri: ohh..good for you..haha
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahhaha
aerua_twentitri: yeah...goo..
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahahu dork...
aerua_twentitri:
aerua_twentitri: hihihi
kit grant Abaigar: Anung balita nba....
kit grant Abaigar: Paksyet na dungue huh....
aerua_twentitri: uhh...wala naman masyado
aerua_twentitri: puro lang wicked tsismis
kit grant Abaigar: Anung tsismis....
aerua_twentitri: sa san guil'mo
kit grant Abaigar: Anu raw iun...
kit grant Abaigar: Kwento mo...
aerua_twentitri: kasi daw may high school form MNHS
aerua_twentitri: eh dati narape sya ng taga morong na trycicle driver
kit grant Abaigar: Ah huh...den...
aerua_twentitri: but nai-secret nya sa parents nya
kit grant Abaigar: Ok....den...
kit grant Abaigar: Ok...
aerua_twentitri: eh ngayon nabuntis sya
kit grant Abaigar: Hiskul ba xa ngaun....or dati...
aerua_twentitri: then inadmit na nya na yun nga narape nga daw sya
aerua_twentitri: ngayon
aerua_twentitri: maybe 1st or 3rd year
aerua_twentitri: high school
kit grant Abaigar: Ngaun ba xa hiskul or dati....
aerua_twentitri: ngayon
kit grant Abaigar: Ok....
kit grant Abaigar: So anu ng nangyare....
aerua_twentitri: yon..wala na naman masyado
kit grant Abaigar: Kinasuhan ba.....
aerua_twentitri: ewan lang
kit grant Abaigar: Ahhhh....
kit grant Abaigar: Kilala ba ung babae....kawawa naman xa....
aerua_twentitri: no...yeah kawawa talaga
aerua_twentitri: kasi why didn't she tell that thing earlier
aerua_twentitri: para nakasuhan yung mamang who ever he was
kit grant Abaigar: Uu nga....kawawa naman...nasira future...
aerua_twentitri: sobra..and take note that she's still in high school
aerua_twentitri: grabe naman
aerua_twentitri: yoeh
kit grant Abaigar: Wala nba....
kit grant Abaigar: Ung nakakatakot...mga mumu....
aerua_twentitri: sabi sa rumagat daw
aerua_twentitri: or imagination lang ata
kit grant Abaigar: Anung rumagat....
aerua_twentitri: yung small brgy. sa likod ng sementeryo
kit grant Abaigar: Anung nangyare.....
aerua_twentitri: same old white lady ata?
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahah....damn...sa hulo wala ba....
kit grant Abaigar: Gus2 ko ganun paguwe ko....
kit grant Abaigar: Mumu.....
aerua_twentitri: nyahahaha...para masaya!
kit grant Abaigar: Yea.....
aerua_twentitri: haha...saya moh..hoooo..haha
kit grant Abaigar: Mumu...sana sa paraan nina lek...
kit grant Abaigar: Meron xe dun.....
aerua_twentitri: si prinnce lang makikita moh don
aerua_twentitri: wahahahahaha
kit grant Abaigar: Si tata perto tsaka ung asawa nia tsaka ung baby...
kit grant Abaigar: Silang tatlo naglilitaw....
kit grant Abaigar: Marami na nakakita dun....pati matatanda...
kit grant Abaigar: Kahit tanung mo sa kanila...
aerua_twentitri: ohws?
aerua_twentitri: kaya pala hindi makapag-isa si udeth pag umuuwe wahahahaha!!
kit grant Abaigar: Ah huh....tanung mo sa kanila....
kit grant Abaigar: Mumu....
aerua_twentitri: arg..
aerua_twentitri: katakut naman
kit grant Abaigar: Pakwento mo lahat...
aerua_twentitri: buti na lang hindi ako inaabot ng gabi don
kit grant Abaigar: Kaya si 2kne tumatakbo paguuwe ng daling araw...
aerua_twentitri: hahaha
aerua_twentitri: hahahhahahahha
kit grant Abaigar: Yea... Fo sho..I aynt lyin...
aerua_twentitri: parang si udeth iiyak na kapag hindi ihahated
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahah....
aerua_twentitri: ahh..kaya pala ganon..
aerua_twentitri: eh di paguwi moh punta ka don
aerua_twentitri: til midnight
aerua_twentitri: haha
kit grant Abaigar: Ah huh..I oweiz do that....
aerua_twentitri: to see those...alam muh nah?
kit grant Abaigar: Yea...plus pimpin sa dilim...
kit grant Abaigar: Ahahahah
1:13 AM
countless tears;
have dropped
Monday, September 04, 2006
jEweL ' wrote:
waaaaaaaaaaaaaa....wala un.....uu 22o un kaso wala un...sa 22o kasama ako dun sa mga mag huhubo..hehehehehehe....niloloko lng namin na ggwin namin unkase kaya napunta dun usapan humihingi nga kmi ng sry d nga namin alam kng bkit gglit samin c gian kaya basta humihingi kmi ng sry dun....kaso nag bgy c gian ng mga pede namin gwin pra patawarin kmi eh kasama un ung sa mag huhbo hehehehehhe....jok jok lng namin ni prince na ggwin namin un..........un lng un/...!?!?!?!!
kw padn luv ni prince.......mern ako sabhin geh ....
c prince kc sabhin muna maniacis c prince sa babae kaso pag meron cya shota un mahal nya kaso pag meron cya iba babae meaning lng nun kasama na un sa biruan naming mga lalake xempre babae un eh.....pero kw mahal nun di na nya gusto c gian weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...hehehhee gusto mo kausapin mo c prince....wag mo tago yn nararamdaman mo mag tanung ka ky prince pra ma laman mo po kng anu tlga dahilan........sasabhin ko ulit jaming lng namin un ni prince ...............hane!!!!geh'
J-ZEL ' wrote:
>
> oi lek..may itatanong ako sayo> don't tell prinnce about this hane?
> ..ano..kasi di ba nung one week akong
> nagkasakit..di ba nag-inom kayo non..
> tumawag diba si prinnce kina gian..
> nagsosorry daw..then sabi daw ni gian..
>
> *maghubo ka muna sa harap namen*
>
> goosh..
>
> then after that nagparinig daw sina hazel na
> nasan na ba yung maghuhubo sa harap natin..
> then yun nga ginawa nga ni prinnce..
>
> what's his reason? why did he do that?
> bakit naman nya yon ginawa? does that mean
> na gusto pa nya si gian?bakit sya nagsosorry kay
> gian?anong meron?waaaaaaah!
>
> anu bah! kung nagsasawa na sya saken kase naiilang ako sa ginagawa nya sabihin nya saken kung ayaw na nya..madali naman akong kausap eh..kung anong gusto nya ok..then be it..but.. basta..he should've tell me that on the first place...
> NAKAKAASAR!
4:32 AM
countless tears;
have dropped